Weight.

Recently, I had a moment of clarity when it came to my weight. An amazing purple and black dress caught my eye when I was shopping a few weeks earlier. I instantly loved it. Not many things can accurately represent me and my style. The dress did fit,yet some of my stomach decided to rear it's ugly head. I've never been skinny unlike my mother, who has always been skinny her whole life. Anyways, my family history when it comes to weight is pretty sucky. Most of my family is big. I know it's important to have self-esteem and confidence in the way I look but I don't remember a time when I was happy with myself. I weighed myself yesterday and saw I was 195 pounds. On a 5'4 girl it's pretty bad. I've tried in the past to lose weight and let's just say it didn't go so well. With college coming up in the fall, I realized it's now or never to lose some weight. I don't want my health becoming a problem in my coming years. It's going to be a hard process for me but I need to feel happy with myself before I go off for college. So, I've been starting to eat better and I even threw out my chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. The bugs must be happy. I've also started running and a little bit of yoga. So, I won't obsess about my weight every single day, but sometimes it's hard not too. Also, I can't wait till next week.

In 6 days, I'll be officially legal in the world. I'll be 18!!

So, every week I'll weigh myself and hopefully lose 2-5 pounds a week.

Ahh! So frustrating and confusing

Well the only really good thing about this month is the Renaissance Festival at MOSI in Tampa,FL.I'm going the 27-29th.Anyway,I've been talking constantly to my friends about how I'm gonna go to NYC in July for my 17th birthday.Well during the wait of my aunt checking air faires for us,my mom's car had to be completely fixed.Let's just say the cost was near the thousands.Also our computer crashed and wouldn't work,so there was another about $250 shelled out.Our money for NYC is pretty much drained,which makes me so upset.My aunt called today to tell us about air faires that she saw.Well she heard about the troubles from my grandmother and wants us to really think about if we have enough.Well my mom came in the den and told me that we should try to hold back New York until around Thanksgiving.That reason being is that I've always wanted to see Macy's Parade up close and personal and also see snow for my first time.So my Summer New York/New Jersey trip is probably now going to be Winter New York/New Jersey.My new summer plans are still in the works and hopefully will be Orlando for 4 days.2 days for Universal Studios and Islands of Adventure and then the last two for shopping and going around Orlando taking pictures.I am glad my mom still has some money left over and is getting paid in June but I can't help but be a little disappointed after thinking about New York for my birthday.Oh well life goes on.
Also only 17 Days till the Renaissance Festival and me dressing up in my gown and corset.

Jay Asher Visit.

Dear Blog,
Today was the day Jay asher came to Charlotte High School.Shocker,I know.Charlotte is completely sports centered and them having an author come is amazing.Anyway,the day was alright.In first,I watched another part of thirteen days.Then 2nd and 3rd,my group and I created Creme Puffs.They didn't turn out so well.4th hour was AWESOME and Christina and Jenny and gallords more of friends watched Jay Asher speak.

Jay Asher is an amazing,down-to earth author and I can't help but not love him.lol.Anyway,thoughout 4th hour,he spoke and basically told us all about how he created his book.He also showed pictures of himself dressed up.He had one of himself dressed up like a mermaid and some others.So funny.He signed my book and it makes me go squee.lolThe rest of the day passed by like a blur.

Afterschool was the Book Club's time with Jay Asher and we ate it up.Jessica came back and looks better than ever.She was involved in a car crash and hurt badly.She looked very happy and healthy.All the best to Jessica.Anyway,Book Club sat down with Jay Asher and we ate some food.For once,we had fruit.Yummy Fruit.The downside was Jenny wasn't there and went to Band practice instead.Gabby stayed and skipped practice.Go Madame President.lol.We ate the sweets and fruit and actually for once had left overs.That never happens.

Well after munching on food,Christina and myself went up to Jay Asher and got pictures of him with the two of us.Christina also got 2 sheets of paper signed with his signature and then she came back up with The Reading Guide for him to sign.Christina and myself along with other members of Book Club stayed behind and started to talk to him.We had actually good conversation until Ms.Garcia told us we had to leave.Evil Ms.Garcia.Just kidding.We were having so much fun and Jay Asher is amazing,plain and simple.

The next one on Book Club's list is Stephenie Meyer.If that ever happened,the school would go into Mass Hysteria.lol.Well I loved the day and so did Christina.Right at this moment,Christina is laying on my couch,critiquing Oprah and making me laugh.I heart Book Club,Jay Asher,and of course Christina.<3

Conflicted

Well today was Prom Committe and it got me thinking about the actual prom.Our theme this year is Ice Palace and it seems really cool.Anyway,I'm conflicted about two people who I want to ask to prom.

One guy always makes me laugh and smile.We just connect easily in conservation and I'm only conflicted about asking him to Prom.I don't want to come off and ask him,then he says no and then its akward between us.That's the only thing that worries me with him.

The second guy has made me open my eyes to new possibilities and I feel easily connected to him as well.You would never think that myself and him could connect but we do.Also,he makes me laugh and smile as well.I'm conflicted that he will look at me differently if I ask him.I don't even think he wants to go to Prom.

Anyway,I don't want to be causing an akward divide between the two guys and myself.My mother is trying to encourage me and so is my sis.I don't know what to do.

Wanna Slap A Bitch

Well the title says it all about this day.My day was fine except for 2nd and 3rd hour,which is my 2 periods of cooking for me.I go in thinking the day will be fine and whatever.However,I was wrong.This fucking bitch Tyler comes up to me and says she is gonna kick me out of the group I'm in.She claims I don't do anything and that the rest of them do everything.Bullshit.I wash dishes,I clean the table,I may not always get the ingredients but mainly I do.I've come so close to slapping the shit out of her today.My hand even started to move on it's own toward her cheek.I didn't though.I'm so worried that come tomorrow,if she says anything,I'll beat her down and leave her bloody.I hope that doesn't come to it.Sorry for my constant swear words but I've been so ticked off and I needed to write to release some of my anger.

Renaissance Basketball Game

Today was fun and I got out of 5th and 6th hour.We had a Renaissance Basketball Game for anybody who has a Renaissance sticker on their Student I.D.Well the day started out good and I even registered for my senior year,also I got an A on my Creative Photo Project.Yay!

After 4th hour,I met up with Jenny and Christina for the basketball game.We were playing Fort Myers.My bag was more spirited than probably all three of us.Something was up with their music though.They played music whenever a Time-Out was taken and the songs ranged from The Cha Cha Slide to Man,I Feel Like A Woman to Low.It was interesting and really weird much.In the beginning and threw the game,tons of foul shots were taken from both Charlotte and Fort Myers.During the game one of Fort Myers players were on the ground.All of us thought he was hurt but in fact he got hit in a spot that boys don't like to be hit.The Cheerleaders performed as usual and still if you ask me looked like sluts.In the end,Charlotte lost 51 to 63.Wah! Charlotte sucks at Basketball.

More Writing About My Hometown,Books,and Obssessions

Yeah,yeah I know I wrote until next week but I guess I just want to write some more.Anyway,living in a small town can be fun but sometimes it is absolute torture.Supposedly,my high school is in the process of being rebuilt because of a hurricane that blew through in '04.Anyway,supposed rumors are going around saying that come around this time next year,the class of 2010(which is my year) is supposed to be in the new school.To be honest,I don't believe it.The school still looks like it needs a lot of work.They started to build our football field which took 18 months.Charlotte is way too sports centered but being in Charlotte for so many years you get used to it.Also,the town is supposed to be building 'The Loop' which takes up gallords of space.Well let's just say this,they haven't even cleared anything so that means they either abandoned it or they are just too stupid to start building. Just kidding about the last.

Also I'm starting to read 'A Certain Slant of Light' for Book Club.So far,it's very good but I'm only halfway through the book.And good news...Tonight Moonlight comes on Sci-Fi.Yush! I have a huge obssession with that show.Mick and Beth forever.I wish that tomorrow would be a good day but sometimes you never know what life has in store for you.Tomorrow will probably be a typical Saturday,like waking up,taking a shower,role-playing a little on Gaia,then reading,then finally sleep.Blah,sometimes weekends are boring.

Rawr,
Harmony and Vampires(Christina shall remember this line from Monday),
Elly