Recently, I had a moment of clarity when it came to my weight. An amazing purple and black dress caught my eye when I was shopping a few weeks earlier. I instantly loved it. Not many things can accurately represent me and my style. The dress did fit,yet some of my stomach decided to rear it's ugly head. I've never been skinny unlike my mother, who has always been skinny her whole life. Anyways, my family history when it comes to weight is pretty sucky. Most of my family is big. I know it's important to have self-esteem and confidence in the way I look but I don't remember a time when I was happy with myself. I weighed myself yesterday and saw I was 195 pounds. On a 5'4 girl it's pretty bad. I've tried in the past to lose weight and let's just say it didn't go so well. With college coming up in the fall, I realized it's now or never to lose some weight. I don't want my health becoming a problem in my coming years. It's going to be a hard process for me but I need to feel happy with myself before I go off for college. So, I've been starting to eat better and I even threw out my chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. The bugs must be happy. I've also started running and a little bit of yoga. So, I won't obsess about my weight every single day, but sometimes it's hard not too. Also, I can't wait till next week.
In 6 days, I'll be officially legal in the world. I'll be 18!!
So, every week I'll weigh myself and hopefully lose 2-5 pounds a week.
